I Don't Want to Be Awake: A journey through dreams

Every day when I go to sleep, I feel like I should sleep for long and should see dreams where my life is full of happiness. A life where my family, including everyone, is having a chat; a life where I am telling a story to Aditya and Niharika, and they are falling asleep peacefully. A life where Anna and Aai are recounting the struggles through which they raised us siblings despite all the odds – monetary, societal, and emotional. Some days, Anna had to walk through muddy paths in scary nights, sometimes carrying a bullock cart full of wood to be sold to the woodcutter to pay for college fees. Days when the local elites teased him, asking why he didn't ask his sons to leave studying and start earning. A life where Om visits me in Aurangabad and Tai writes a reassuring letter, dispatched with Om, telling us not to worry about anything. A life where dear Granny rises early in the morning and begins preparing for our school day with new life and freshness. A life Where Atul is helping me in my deep sorrow and my love is back. I want to go to sleep. Not because I am tired or sleepy, I just don't want to be awake. As I am awake, I realize that I am fading away, everything is drifting away, and no one is noticing. ~ Amol